3:33

I'm awake... I want to go to sleep but I can't.

So I went back to work today and it was quite busy. It feels like I never left. Meh. I'll write more later.

3rd day

[x] Drove 7 hours to San Francisco
[x] Walked around and looked for something to eat
[x] Went to Mamitas and ate a burrito c:
[x] Went to Walgreens
[x] Walked around Fisherman's Wharf
[x] Failed at Bestbuy and Office Max
[x] Went to Target
[x] Failed at hooking up the Tv to the laptop
[x] Went over the Golden Gate twice... paid the toll twice
[x] Got lost on the scenic route c:
[x] Codmother
[x] Union Square... just so bad -_-
[x] Olde Creamery
[x] UC Berkley
[ ] Boudins
[ ] Ghiradelli Square
[ ] Mama's
[x] Ike's place
[x] Lombard street
[ ] China Town

So last night in San Francisco! c: So far it's been a good trip. Lots of fun, lots of food, and good company :)

SAN FRANCISCO

So I'm updating from the hotel room of the Marriott by Fisherman's Wharff. Kenny's uploading pictures and videos onto his laptop so I have time to do a little update. So so far we have...

[x] Drove 7 hours to San Francisco
[x] Walked around and looked for something to eat
[x] Went to Mamitas and ate a burrito c:
[x] Went to Walgreens
[x] Walked around Fisherman's Wharff
[x] Failed at Bestbuy and Office Max
[x] Went to Target
[x] Failed at hooking up the Tv to the laptop
[x] Went over the Golden Gate twice... paid the toll twice
[x] Got lost on the scenic route c:
[x] Codmother
[x] Union Square... just so bad -_-
[ ] Olde Creamery
[ ] UC Berkley
[ ] Boudins
[ ] Ghiradelli Square
[ ] Mama's
[ ] Ike's place
[ ] Lombard street
[ ] China Town

Gahh! So much to do!

So in a few minutes we're going back to Union Square because we could not find parking the first time we went. Honestly I think it was one of the more stressful experiences I've had. The trolly has tracks on the street making it difficult to navigate the street, people not abiding by the trafic lights and walking wherever they want,  parking lots costing over 20 dollars, ONE WAY STREETS >.<, and just the general craziness of it all. 

Alrighty I'll update more later c:

So tired. And my knees hurt.

I'm actually too lazy to take my journal out of my bag so I'm writing here. These days it's just constant stress. Finals are over and it's winter break but there are still things that need to be done and it's just lingering in the back of my mind. Retreat is coming up soon and I guess that's most of what it is. I know that I'm not supposed to be anxious if I trust in God to do His work because I'm just a vessel and nothing will get done if it's not through God.

I lift my hands to believe again
You are my REFUGE You are my STRENGTH
As I pour out my heart these things I remember
You are faithful God, forever

I know that I need to just trust and rely on God without doubting His power. I know that I need to let go of this arrogance that I hold onto thinking that I'm the one doing everything--it is only through God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit that gives me the strength to do anything. Most importantly I need to regain that love and that heart that was lost in the busy-ness of everything and just ask God for His heart and His eyes so that that I may see things through His perspective. He is just so much bigger than everything... how can we think our ways compares to His? God is faithful and God is good.

Two of my favorite verses:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in EVERYTHING,
by prayer and petition, with THANKSGIVING, present your requests to God.
And the PEACE of God, which transcends all understanding, will GUARD your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:6-7

If we died with him, we will also live with him;
If we endure, we will also reign with him.
If we disown him, he will also disown us;
If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself.
-2 Timothy 2:11-13

Still up

It's almost 4... I'm so tired but I can't fall asleep. So far I've just watched a bunch of "friends" episodes. I was listening to Adele's Daydreamer and the song is basically describing a guy that's she's waiting for

There's no way I could describe him
What I say is just what I'm hoping for...

It makes me wonder. In college most of my professors talk about how there is no such thing as "The One" and how Disney makes girls think that there's a prince charming out there waiting to sweep you off your feet. Meh, I'd like to hold on to my childish dreams for a little bit longer and think that there is that one guy for me.